Fresno = Death

Well I feel like that sometimes, although it does have a nice temple there so I guess it is not that bad. SO here is the update of what is going on with Orion and I. Last month Orion got laid off, well I guess you can say that, his boss does not have a lot of work coming in so he told Orion that he was no longer needed. But once he got more work and could afford to pay Orion he could come back. Well that was a month ago. Now Orion and I are both jobless in an economy that does not really want to hire :( Ever since we have gotten that news we have been looking for work, mostly Orion because I am going to school full time online and that takes up most of my day, and we have found nothing. Instead of burning through all of our savings from us working like crazy over the summer. I had two jobs and went to school full time while Orion worked full time and did side work, we managed to save up for a new car that we hoped to buy this fall. Instead we are spending that money on paying rent and buying food. We have decided to move to FRESNO with Orion's parents at the end of the month if Orion does not find a new job. :( :( :( :( :( x a billion is how I feel at the moment. But there are more opportunities for jobs out there and we would not have to pay for rent or food.

To be honest it is rather stressful to be us right now, but we know that everything will work out in the end. We are praying and hoping things will work out soon. Actually this lack of money has made Orion and I much closer and more inventive when it comes to food. We are also loving sleeping until we wake up instead of waking up to an alarm. All in all we are pretty happy but stressed.

A Little Secret

I do NOT like girls singers, basically at all. EXCEPT Taylor Swift. I know its a weird secret but I absolutely love her! Another secret I don't like country either except Taylor Swift. I swear I can listen to her all day long. This is currently my favorite song of hers.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XPBwXKgDTdE

I am not sure if the link will work, but the name of the song is MINE. So you can check it out on youtube if my link fails.

Carmel Corn

My very first attempt at carmel popcorn! It is so good! I have to say that I am pretty proud of myself. I am working on being a good house wife by baking and cooking more. So far it has been going pretty good. I will post pictures of wonderful success stories of food I have made. I am not going lie if something I make is gross or looks funny there will be no proof of it, just so you know.

A Different Name for the Same Thing

Over the past few weeks I have reconnected with people in my life. Friends that I use to be so close to seemed like strangers to me only weeks ago. I had no idea what was really going on with them or what plan they had for the future. I guess getting married does that to you. The closeness to my friends started going on the back burned when I decided to get married. Suddenly it was more important to me to figure out what I needed to do to better prepare myself for marriage, I mean come on I was making the biggest decision of my life and deciding to spend eternity with someone. This made it hard for me to relate to boy drama of dating or talking about short term things. My focus was on much different things. My close friends sensed this I think and started retreating. At first I did not notice, but slowly I realized that when I really needed my friends they had all but faded away. But now things have changed. I still can't really relate to dating drama and awkward situations with boys because I am no longer living that life. When you are married your perspective changes, so you become less interested in juicy dating stories and more interested in spending time with your husband. I feel like my friends have now seen that me being married has changed me, but for the better. We just talk about different things now, which at one point before I was married I thought that could never happen.

So here is to all my friends that I have reconnected with, who never really left at all. Thanks for giving me space to figure out what was important to me and how much you mean to me. Here is a picture from the past with one of my oldest and dearest friends. I think we were junior's in high school.

What Dreams May Come

Have you seen this movie? I know it is a little old, it came out in the 90's. Its younger than me so I guess it is not that old. It is really good in my opinion. I guess this movie hits home a little more for me know that I am married. The basis of the movie is the husband (Robin Williams) goes to Hell to find his wife. His wife committed suicide after Robin Williams dies. I know what you are thinking, Kayde this does not sound like a good movie at all. Just wait it gets better, I promise. SO he goes to Hell to save his wife, or stay with her in Hell because he wants to be with her no matter what. He leaves Heaven to go to Hell just so he can be with his wife, now that is a committed husband. In the movie their love is so strong that it can bring the wife out of the depths of Hell because they are soul mates. Orion and I watched this movie last night and I cried. I asked Orion if he would give up Heaven to be with me if I am stuck in Hell. What he said was really cute "Being with you is Heaven no matter where we are". Aww I love my husband. So I am about to ruin the end of the movie, Robin Williams ends up saving his wife and bringing her to Heaven, where their children are. I forgot to mention the kids were killed in a car accident four years before the husband died. Anyways the reason I like this movie so much is that it expresses the fact that true love conquers all, even in death. I know I am little bit cheesy, but I just cant help myself.

What an adventure!

Well all of last week I was REALLY sick. I went to the hospital Saturday morning/Friday night. It was midnight and I was in so much pain. I felt like dying instead of dealing with the pain. SO my sweet husband took me to the hospital. We got there at midnight and did not leave until 5 AM!!!!!!!!!!! Death was knocking on our door if we stayed any longer. Orion is not someone who deals well with staying up super late. I was laying on the hospital bed drugged up and getting hydrated, while Orion sat next to me holding my hand trying his best not to be grouchy. I had spent a good amount of time in the waiting room crying because it hurt so bad, poor Orion wanted so bad to doing something to make me feel better but he could not. When they were putting the IV in my arm he could not watch. He said he left the room because he needed to get some water and go to the bathroom. I know he really could not handle seeing someone cause me pain and knowing he could nothing to stop them. After a couple hours of fluid being pumped into me, morphine, and medicine I don't remember we left the hospital. I was in a lot less pain and was very sleepy.

I was able to sleep for 4 hours until the pain came back full force. So instead of waking Orion up to drive me to the store to pick up my pain medicine I walked. It is only two blocks away, by the time I got there my head felt like it was going to explode. So I called Orion and had him pick me up. He came with a smile on his face and love in his embrace. I really am so lucky to have a husband like him. If I got four hours of sleep so did Orion, but he stayed up with me to make me food and make sure I took my medicine. After food and medicine I felt sleepy again, but Orion could not fall asleep again. So I slept while he waited for me to wake up. I spent most of the day in and out of contentiousness. By the next day I was feeling better and was able to make breakfast for myself, which was toast because my medicine made food sound not so appealing.

I am still taking medicine to help me get better but I am back to cooking and eating normal amounts of food. The doctor said I had strep throat REALLY bad and I was REALLY dehydrated. I was a lot sicker than I realized and it got really bad pretty fast. That is the most exciting thing that has been going on lately. 

Breakfast

I am a sucker for breakfast! I think it is the best meal in the world. Whenever I go to a place that serves breakfast all day long, nine times out of ten I will order breakfast no matter the time of day. Now Orion is a pretty good cook, but prefers that I cook dinner because he has worked all day long. To this request I happily say yes. It seems like a fair deal. At the moment I am not working or going to school, it is so weird to have all day to do what I please. I find myself wishing I was more creative, but that is not the point of this post. If I am going to make dinner every night Orion is going to make breakfast on the weekends. This is a great deal if I do say so myself. Lucky for me Orion is great at making breakfast and sometimes when I am not feeling up to making dinner he will make breakfast for dinner. Seriously how could I ask for a better husband?!? Well I asked him to make me a face for breakfast this Sunday and he happily did so. He made biscuits, along with eggs and bacon. Here is the result.

I know it looks a little funny because the biscuit cheeks are a little off, but it was delicious! Orion is really good at making food look like faces. On a semi random note we have been married for 4 months now! It is crazy how time flies when you are not paying attention. Before I know it we will have been married for a year and then a life time. I am so glad I was able to marry my best friend and look forward to many more breakfasts with him.