An Update

Life has been crazy lately. Ever since my mom passed away I have been trying to stay positive and busy. That is really not hard to do when you have a spunky almost 2 year old. (How did that happen by the way she is almost 2! I just can't believe it sometimes. Some days it is hard to stay positive but I have found at least one way to always stay positive. Go to the beach!

 It is really hard to go to the beach and not smile.

 My little lady clearly can't help herself either.

 Adilyn really likes it when we bury her in the sand. Once she is covered she pretends to sleep and snore. It is rather cute.

 Of course we had to play hide and seek.

 She is hiding in her little hole. It took Orion a while to dig it for her. She kept throwing sand back into the hole.

 Poor Orion ended up with a blister from digging so much.

 But it was worth it to see the smile on her face.

Just happy as can be. We sure are lucky to have such a happy little lady. She keeps us on our toes and usually smiling. What a blessing it is to know that we get to be together forever. It makes the hard days seem like a passing moment.

Dear Mama

Dear Mama,

I sure do miss you. Mother's Day is coming up and I just don't know what to do without you. Normally I would be busy making you a card and picking out a day we could go to lunch. Let's be honest it would be what sushi place we wanted to eat at. No one loves going to sushi with me as much as you Mama. Maybe when Adilyn is older she will like it, but until then I will just crave sushi with you.

I wanted to thank you for always loving me. For being my best friend, but for being my Mama first. I know when I was a teenager that was hard, but it means a lot to me. Thank you for being a wonderful example of how to love a daughter unconditionally. I hope to love Adilyn as much as you love me. Thank you for showing me how to love others and to truly be excited for them. I am glad I got your personality :) Thank you for doing whatever you could to make my life better, even when I probably did not deserve it. Thank you for supporting my decisions 100% no matter how dumb they might have seemed.

It is because of you that I am who I am. I can't express how grateful I am to have you in my life. I don't have you physically in my life anymore, but I can feel your presence as I walk to the park with Adilyn. When the sun warms my skin and a slight breeze blows hair in my face, I can feel your love. I can hear your laugh when Adilyn finds something hilarious. I can see your smile in my reflection. You are always close to me and maybe one day I will find a way to show you how much you mean to me. Until then I hope to do you proud raising your grandchildren. Try not to tell my future kids all the naughty things I did when I was little. I want them to think of me as a superstar for as long as possible.

Thank you for choosing to be the best mother for me

I love you.